2010 out

~riyal~
as another solar cycle commences, i cant help but remember 2010 as the most beneficial, challenging, and happiest of my years. to add to that it has been one of my most successful years. one of my favourite years along with 2008 and 2004.
i wish to thank everyone who has been part of my life. my family, my girlfriend whom i love so much, my best friend, closest friend, sister and aunt to whom i hold so dear to me.the bachelors who are always available. my insatiable kdu friends who have helped me embrace my potential as well as their. all my teachers and lecturers that have thought me their craft. and of course Allah for letting me live this amazing year. This is be a tough one to top.

delirious

~riyal~

Im feeling so delirious
cause what im going through is serious
some plants are carnivorous
but no plants are herbivorous
this is me in my most vulnerable
where all i have are considerable
every deed in life is not disposable
so make sure you dont regret whats irreparable

well is it any wonder
why we all sit down and ponder
about all the different wonders
that we all use as a banter
the final question is simple
we all do things that are sinful
then we become wishful
because we remember what is beautiful

By Myself by linkin park

~riyal~

What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily façade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself (Myself)

I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can't rely on myself

I can't hold on
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in

If I turn my back I'm defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on
Then they'll take from me 'till everything is gone
If I let them go I'll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun
If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer
(By myself)

I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can't rely on myself

I can't hold on
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in

How do you think I've lost so much
I'm so afraid, I'm out of touch
How do you expect I will know what to do
When all I know is what you tell me to

Don't you know
I can't tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do, how hard I try
I can't seem to convince myself why
I'm stuck on the outside

I can't hold on
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in

My december by linkin park

~riyal~

This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
This is my December
This is my snow covered home
This is my December
This is me alone

And I,
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I,
Take back all the things I said
To make you feel like that
And I,
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I,
Take back all the things that I said to you

And I'd give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to

This is my December
These are my snow covered trees
This is me pretending
This is all I need

And I,
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I,
Take back all the things I said
To make you feel like that
And I,
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I,
Take back all the things that I said to you

And I'd give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to

This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear

Give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to

Give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to

Alone By Myself

~riyal~

what do i do when they ignore me in front of me
do I smile and wave politely
or do I try and forget that this bad dream,
is just a reason for why i need to realise my life line is slim
you count on them and then they forget you
as your trials continue and continues
I try to hold on but im so stretched thin
because my patience is somewhere lost within
you hold them close and keep them warm while their cold at night
but they're not around you when you're in a fright
the sad thing is they said they would
but when the time comes they wonder if they should
through this you know who you can rely on
all my best, my closes and my relatives are gone
maybe they cant handle the fact that this could be wrong
or forget the fact that what they are doing is wrong
i guess being abandoned is another fact i need to understand
i shouldnt be mad why should i, im not the man
a ponder earlier made me wonder
not that im important to them because i know how im not
but whether how much they mean to me
well thats just a thought


Riyal
21st december 2010